Non-reactive

took the day off from work yesterday to do a HIV test.

now now...calm down...

it's merely because it is now THE LAW for all Muslim couples be tested before getting married.

i personally think this is a good move, considering how rampant free sex has become amongst the youth. in the end, this is for our own...protection.

the only "down-side" to this, is that we could only be tested at certain government clinics. and because we both reside in Wilayah Persekutuan, we need to be tested in Wilayah Persekutuan. So, the nearest clinic was Klinik Kesihatan Pantai (or something like that).

A few days ago, mcdreamy called them up and asked them for details (what time, can we make an appointment, etc.). get this...

1. Only between 8am-12pm and 2-4pm, Mon-Fri
2. There is a daily quota! 6 PERSONS (not couple) in the morning sesion and 6 PERSONS in the evening session.
3. No appointments. First come first serve.

My only point is that...the government wants to enforce this law (which is good). but they make it super duper difficult for us to comply!

luckily for us, it went quite smoothly. unfortunately for me, it was quite a drama!

when the nurse called us in (she was very nice!!), she sat us down and asked us whether we understood what HIV was all about. we told her what we knew, then she gave us more info. it is part of the HIV test, whereby we will be counselled first.

my mind was not completely there though...because...i am aichmophobic (fear of needles). my heart was beating fast, i was feeling breathless. felt the blood draining out of my face.

the inevitable happened. i chickened out. so mcdreamy went before me.

when it came to my turn...again...the symptoms started...again. my throat felt constricted.

word of advice...try to relax. because when she pricked my finger, the blood didn't want to come out!!! and so she had to PRICK ME AGAIN! (read: double pain). crap. shit. grrrr.

so, had to think about rainbows and ponies...and finally the blood came "pouring" (yes, i am exaggerating) out.

then, we proceeded to wait for our test results. there was another couple testing after us. 10 mins later, mcdreamy was called in for his results. then, the other couple was called in. where was my results???

am i HIV positive???? am i going to DIE???? CAN I STILL GET MARRIED?

when i was reaching hysteria, my name was called in (like 15 mins after the 2nd couple!).

"Do you know your results?"

"errr...no" (wasn't this why she called me in???"

"OK, you are non-reactive" and she said this in a grave voice.

"ok...errr...is that good or bad?"

"It is not good or bad. Just don't expose yourself for 6 months"

(damn! i AM positive!!! and this means that i can't expose myself to flus and colds!)

(still looking at me gravely)

"So tell me what you understand about HIV"

(proceeded to tell her)

"good. do tell your friends because not many people are aware"

"ok"

took a peak at my results. ok! non-reactive is GOOD! i am NOT POSITIVE!!

yeesh, the doc freaked me out.

so yes. this my life drama.