little shadow

mcdreamy and i have been trying for a baby for months now. and, each time i get my period...i get very disappointed and sad. but i knew...this is not in my hands. it is only in God's hands. so, i had to tell and remind myself to be patient. sometimes i even get a bout of jealousy when i find out...YET another person got pregnant.

the only good thing is that my period are very regular. so, i don't have those long waits to finally found out that i am not pregnant.

so this month, i was due on 10/8/09. i don't know. i kind of felt as if...this is it. this time...i DID NOT feel bloated. my breasts DID NOT swell or hurt. but i DID have 2 new pimples...though that could be largely due to the new SKII product i tried. and i had FEVER (which...might not be related to this anyway).

so, when it still didn't come...i tried not to be TOO excited (i actually misread the ClearBlue pregnancy test...thought that the 99% accuracy is only 4 days AFTER the missed period). told mcdreamy, who kept pestering me to test.

the next day, my fever resided. but i felt so nauseous and had that feeling of throwing up (which thankfully i didn't). hmmm...could it be?

on 12/8/09...mcdreamy and i decided to do the test.

whoa boy. what a roller coaster emotion ride it was.

i only had ONE test remaining. so i took it.
after 1 min...a single line came up.
after 2 mins...another line came up to form a cross with the previous line. but it was so faint! yelped with happiness...
after 3 mins...the line was still faint.

feeling confused and happy at the same time...we actually rushed to tesco (it was 1030pm) to get more tests.

i drank loads to make sure i can pee (i didn't know you were not supposed to do this).

and disappointingly...
test 2, test 3 and test 4...came back negative.

crushed...again...i went to sleep.

the next day...i woke up. feeling really really nauseaus. made my way to work...but didn't make it. because i felt like throwing up (and weirdly pooing at the same time)...i turned the car around to head home again. before that, i stopped at Guardian pharmacy, and purchased THREE more tests. this time i bought Clear Blue PLUS+ (which is supposed to be super sensitive to the hPg hormone).

rushed home.
peed on the stick.

and there it was.
a CLEAR 'positive'.

:)

this is an actual picture. will upload a clearer picture when i can.

the next day, mcdreamy and i went to see the gynae (my first one). went to Dr. Guna at Damansara Specialist Hospital...who came highly recommended.

it was so cool. he scanned me.

this is not my actual scan! found this online. mine kinda looked like this.

i totally had a Rachel moment. because i couldn't see anything. at first, i even thought that maybe i wasn't pregnant after all.
but the doctor confirmed and showed me this little shadow in the middle of my uterus. there he/she was. :)

so, apparently i am 4 weeks pregnant. and the baby is due on 18 April 2010.

hihi...another Arian.

*happiness*