aching mind...

so i didn't exactly follow through with my previous post, where i was going to write about my new year's resolution...

i don't really have an excuse either...except:

1. insane amount of work
2. being terribly unwell since new year's
3. feeling depressed about a lot of things...

but then again, what's new with me...

work
"doing what you love is the cornerstone of having abundance in your life" - wayne dyer

"do what you love. when you love your work, you become the best workerin the world." - uri geller

i love what i do. at least, i USED to love what i do.
in my 3 puny years of working, i have never felt dread about going to work.
in fact, based on slightly exagerrated stories by my peers...i used to "skip" at work. and give a cheerful hello to anyone that passes by.

now?

i try to convince myself that i NEED to be on mc (which in the end, i don't take) and practically have to drag myself to work.
cheerful hellos? you are lucky not to get snarled at by me (ok, purely exagerrated. there are still people who thinks that i am "nice").

so, you might wonder why i am feeling this way.

1. unhappy about how things are managed
2. too many changes made, which means that almost everything i do is pretty much "stupid" work
3. feels like i am not moving anywhere...be it horizontally OR vertically

maybe it's time for a change?
but that means that i would need to update my cv. yikes. i have never updated my cv. simply because this is my first job. and it was probably like the 4th company i applied to before graduating.

job hunting. such a scary prospect. especially when the economy looks like its going down to the point of no return. putting myself out there. interviews & assessments. i have never done this before!

mrs mumsie thinks i am 'crackers' for taking the risk now.
but, it is something that i think i really need to do. for myself.

possible new careers:

1. malaysia's very own dr. love - publish a book on the dating do's & don'ts. customised to the malaysian dating scene :)
2. professional shopper/stylist - pay ME to shop FOR you :)
3. columnist a'la carrie bradshaw - eating in the city (more of a "food" columnist")
4. match making business - there are so many career women out there who JUST does not have the time to "find love"
5. mother - who are u to say that this is not a career?

:p

i need "change".

i feel as if 2009 is a year for change.
i have gone and "change"-d my hair...which led to me "chang"-ing my style...

maybe i need a "change" in career too...