b-ing positive is tiring...

oh my...i never knew being positive could zap so much energy out of me!
after 2 days of saying "i am slim, strong and happy" and believing it...
i just...collapsed (mentally that is).
though, i am maintaining the previous 1.5 kilos lost.

after ONE day of trying to be grateful about having a paying job and being positive about things...
i just...broke down all over again.

3 people pointed out to me (in a subtle way) that i am not doing anything in the office.
dude...i know.

*sigh*