i am proud of myself...

No. 3 in my 'top 10 i really want to...' list was to...

...be able to complete my 10km standard chartered race...

and i made it!

28 June 2009 marked the day that i ran (and walked) for 10km (note that this is a SUNDAY).

mcdreamy bailed on me the day before. he claims it is because he will be travelling the next day...fine fine...what could i say to that!?
but he was still a sweetheart to send me (and mr fai and mr lee) to the race. at least, i didn't have to worry about parking and stuff..

the whole dataran merdeka was crowded and buzzing with people at such an early (unGodly) hour. the full and half marathonners have already started their race at 5am.
the 10 klikkers were to start at 7am.

and because full (42km) / half (21km) marathons are just insane...
and the 'fun run' are for wusses...

there are A LOT of people running the 10km...
apparently 10km is still considered for wusses if you are a guy...hihi

there were SO MANY runners that you could barely RUN in the beginning! it was too packed...

the first 5km was very doable for me. i ran most of it...and only took 2 'one minute' breaks in between. but soon after, i started getting blisters in my feet (does this mean that i need new shoes?)...my thighs and calves were BURNING...and i ran out of things to think about to divert my attention from the pain...

so, needless to say...the next 5km was mainly walked (or crawled...not sure...i was pretty delusional at this point).

but as i reached jalan tunku abdul rahman, i could see that the finish line is near...
i did an almost run-hop-walk thing.
so close...so close!
then, the blisters were making every movement hurt.

oooh! i can see the FINISH LINE...i can ALMOST TOUCH IT!
attempted to run again...but...just...couldn't.

that is until...i saw many cameras flashing at me.
yikes!

and that was went i pushed myself...blisters and all...and ran across the finish line...

so drama, right?

but hell, i am happy.
i completed the whole of 10km.
makes my next run almost do-able...

i announced to the whole world that i made it.

the only disappointing thing that happenned was the following sms...

'So did you qualify? Ayah happy you went for it. he is concerned about your weight. ask me to tegur (tell you). i said cannot tell cause you get defensive. (he said) like that susah lah. he cares.'

i was so upset when i received this. i mean...yes. i am AWARE that i have piled on the kilos. and i am not happy about it. and i am working out a plan on how to shed them (hence the running?).

but even worst...why must they say this to me...TODAY...after my 10km run!

shoudn't they be saying something along the lines of...

"i am so proud of you..."
"how are you? are you feeling ok?"
"make sure you rest lots"

or something along that line.

i cried. and cried.

mcdreamy told me that i have to ignore these comments.

and that was what i did.

despite not getting the results on whether i qualified or not...i just wrote back to her and said "yes, i did". while ignoring the fat statement.

*sigh*